Keeping up with Life

Our little family of three has been busy the last 6 months…

I never really thought that I could be so busy!  I know people tell you once you have a baby that your life will never be the same and you run out of time continuously, but I guess it is one of those things that you have to experience before you get it.  Every spare moment I have seems to be instantly filled with something, whether it’s sweeping the floor, doing the dishes, sitting, or petting the dogs–yes, I now pencil in time to pet the dogs.  Work has been going great–busy, but wonderful. My chair fitness has been going great, we have an average of 26 people; functional strength (weight lifting) is picking up steam, and summer hikes are a blast! We are going all over the valley, one step at a time!

James  and one of his old coworkers started their own business three weeks before baby M arrived.  He has been extremely busy and has been working 6 to 7 days a week on a normal basis.  Baby M looooves to hang out with daddy when he is home. All I have to do is say “Daddy!” and she gets so excited and starts to smile and/or laugh!  (I am still holding out that her first word is going to be “mamamama…” but at this point I am not holding my breath–turns out my daughter is a total daddys girl!)  James has been having a blast working but doing landscaping is very tough. He no longer likes the hot, sunny, 90 degree days like I do!

Baby M is as busy as the rest of us! She has been busy talking, laughing, and eating her feet! She is also figuring out how to sit up all by herself! In addition–she is EATING! Eating real food!  She loves it!  I have not been following the “rule” of introducing one food per week, starting with the vegetables.  She started off eating ice cream at my grandparents house in July.  Since then she has had croutons, french fries, sucked on a pickle, and has eaten real baby food.  I decided awhile ago that we were going to make her baby food since the packs or jars of food are super expensive.  So we bought a baby bullet (yes we caved for the baby expensive bullet, but the jars are so cute with the smiley faces on them and I couldn’t resist.)  Baby M has had bananas, apples, peaches, peas, carrots, sweat potatoes, and avocado–she is a big fan of all of them! Each morning we have a 2 ounce jar of a fruit with rice cereal in it; at night we have a vegetable or two.  She is a big eater!

Baby M is also quite an active little thing! She laughs at and loves the dogs–giggles whenever they walk past her or come up to her. She also acts pretty hurt when they walk right past her without looking at her.  At 6 months old she is able to sit up all by herself and I can tell she is very proud!  Her newest trick is getting her diaper off. The other day I thought it was just a fluke that she got the tab pulled off, so I put it back on, then it happened again and again.  I turned around for 10 seconds and she had gotten her diaper completely off and was rolling after my two dogs LAUGHING!

 

Madelyn Month By Month

photo 2 (13)Born February 13, 2016 at 8:20am. Happy and Healthy and the love of our lives!

It took a while for us to get to know each other and how we worked together as a growing family. When we got home all three of us just looked at each other not knowing exactly what to do.  Luckily Madelyn was (and still is) an amazingly easy and happy baby.  She made it quite a bit easier to adjust to parenthood for both James and I.  We were fortunate to have family come and help us for the first few weeks.  After that James went back to work and Madelyn and I were home trying to fend for ourselves.  We did eventually get the hang of things but the first month was pretty hard! I was scared to go anywhere with her because I didn’t know what to do if she cried in public or my gosh! What was I to do if she had a dirty diaper in the store or god forbid if she got hungry!! (Good thing my mom was here and she helped me navigate my first Target trip, grocery store run, and both of my parents were here for our first dining out experience.)

The first few weeks were pretty rough–Sleeping was not happening (of course), I was truthfully having a very hard time having something NEED and depend on me 24/7, and nursing was turning out to be a nightmare! I always thought nursing was one of those things that both mom and baby would be able to do naturally. Man was I wrong! I was blistering, cracking, and by day 5ish (I say -ish, because I really don’t remember and had no sense of time at that point.) by day 5ish I was crying every time she needed to nurse and she was crying because she was upset because I was pulling her away from me because it hurt so badly.  My mom may have even shed a tear or two and James felt so bad for both of us.  Luckily the hospital I went to has two AMAZING, LIFESAVING lactation specialists who helped me immensely! If my mom had not convinced me to go see them over the first few weeks, I would have stopped nursing.  After seeing them it was a night and day difference!  Oh and by the way, when people say all modesty goes out the window after having a baby is 100% true! Before having Madelyn and people told me this I thought-Ha right! There is no way I am going to whip my boob out in front of people, I will never change in public, ect.  Well coming from the most modest person on the planet, I can tell you, after having a baby you seriously do not care!

The first month was very challenging, but it was a great experience.  I We had many meltdowns, sleepless nights, a momentary thought of MY GOD WHAT DID I DO, and so many fun memories, and exciting changes that all three of us went through!   I would not change anything, I was totally in love with my daughter the instant she arrived and nothing could ever change that!

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One Month Old!!

My in laws arrived just before Madelyn turned one month old.  They were very helpful and we enjoyed them coming to meet her! Having family around has been a lot of fun!

Madelyn slept through the night for the first time at 6 weeks old. I was terrified when I woke up in the morning and realized that I didn’t get up to feed or change her at all the night before. I ran into her room and probably scared Madelyn to death by picking her up so quickly to make sure she was alright.  Madelyn and I also started getting the hang of things!  I was also realized that I will not die if I take Madelyn out in public.  Take a deep breath–It’s ok if she cries, she will poop, and probably will eventually need to be fed while in public.  No worries! I figured it all out! I could change and feed her in the car and yes, she will cry in public at some point. I started going to a moms group which includes my boss, her best friend, and another very nice girl!  They were quite excited when I started to come along with them because they all have little boys!  We hang out for a few hours each week, going for a hike, coffee shops, pie cafe’s, ect. and talk mom talk.  Turns out mom talk is quite hilarious!

IMG_0483Two Months Old!

The smiles started in March and have not stopped since! Madelyn also started to coo!  It was so cute. Both James and I fell in love with her noises.  At this point I could not ever imagine my life without our beautifully perfect little girl!  It also started to blow my mind, we were in the swing of things and I was able to take care of Madelyn, go grocery shopping, clean the house, and do the laundry!  It’s the small things–I was thrilled every time I got the laundry done and dinner done in the same day. Who I am I kidding!? I am STILL thrilled if I get those things done on the same day!

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Hike with my moms group.  I am not opposed to breast feeding in public, but I personally don’t feel comfortable with it. However during our hike Madelyn decided she was hungry and when Madelyn gets hungry, she GETS HUNGRY!  So I broke it all out and fed her.  Luckily I had my awesome support system there to hang out with me.  These cute kiddos ranged from 6.5 to 8 months, while Madelyn was a small 2.5 months old when this picture was taken.

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Three Months Old!

Oh my gosh! I know I am bias, but isn’t she adorable! I think she is the cutest thing on the planet!  At this point Madelyn would go to sleep around 9:30pm and get up around 7:30am.  She would get up once a night most nights, but we still had some of the up at all hours of the night.  I also started working again. Luckily I was able to go back to work part time–2.5 days. It’s perfect! Madelyn is also going to the best daycare we could have every asked for! I couldn’t be happier! Month three was a big month for us! Madelyn laughed! A real, happy, full belly laugh! James and I were fortunate enough to be together for her first full belly laugh. We were laughing with her. It was so cute! Now I try to make her laugh all the time; it only works 50% of the time but I make funny faces and noises 100% of the time! At the very end of month three Madelyn also started to roll over! One night she was pushed up on her elbows, head high up in the air and all of a sudden she was on her back, looking up at me, smiling! She then very quickly started rolling over from her back to stomach.  Now every time she is on her back she ends up on her stomach looking around! She is so very active and we are enjoying watching her grow up so quickly!

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First family hike on my 29th birthday!!

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Four Months Old!

WOW! I can not believe that our little girl is four months old already! She is so big and active!  We had our 4 month doctors visit and she is 11 pounds 12 ounces (6% on growth charts) and 24 inches long (27% on growth charts).  She also had her second round of shots.  She is rolling over both directions, getting those little knees up under her hips and trying to claw her way along the floor, and she is spinning around in a circle on her back and stomach.  This month I can honestly say it feels like she has always been with us. Neither of us could imagine life without her. We are so thankful that she is healthy and happy! We can not wait for her next set of milestones!!

Getting back to “Real Life”

I went back to work two weeks ago–Baby M was 12 weeks old when I went back.  It was pretty hard leaving her, luckily my mom was able to come for the month of May to ease me into somebody else watching Madelyn and her actually going to daycare, starting June 1st.  YIKES!  The first day back at work I had a really hard time until I started teaching my exercise class, then everything fell into place and while I missed her with all my heart, it was not as bad as I thought it would be.  I am lucky and only have to work part time–2.5 days which means I teach my chair fitness class, weekly hikes, and a functional strength class (because if I call it what it actually is, weight lifting, none of my 80+ year old residents would come, because women are not supposed to have muscles..you have to love this generation!!)  Being able to be at home with Madelyn is great! She is growing so much and it is so much fun to see her change daily!  She is trying to roll over, sit up, and is very animated!   She is getting close to laughing and I can not wait until that happens!

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Her first flight to Minnesota to visit aunts, uncles, and great grandparents!

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Her first hike!!

 

 

 

 

Life with Baby M

Where has the last 10 weeks gone?!  I can not believe our little girl is 10 weeks old! She has grown quite a bit and has changed immensely!  She is probably close to 10 pounds now and smiles and babbles like there is no tomorrow! She is even having trouble sleeping because she is too excited that she can talk. Baby M is a ton of fun and James and I are loving seeing her change daily!  I can honestly not tell you what I did with all of my time before she was born.  Nowadays our lives consist of changing diapers, feeding, playing, and sleeping. James loves to try to make Baby M smiles and he just melts when she does smile at him!  Getting up at all hours of the night is not as bad as it used to be, I think it is just routine now and most of the time when I do go get her in the middle of the night to feed her she looks at me and smiles and now even coos at me! It is adorable!!

Baby M’s personality is starting to shine!!  She has been a very curious and happy baby since day one; always looking around at her new world and the only time she cries is when she is hungry.  Baby M gets hangry very quickly–she is a lot like Mommy in that way I am afraid.  Now she is starting to figure out chewing on her thumb, will master sucking her thumb shortly I am sure, and it happens to be her left hand that she always goes for. James and I are betting that she is left handed like her uncle, grandpa great, and a second cousin on my side of the family.  All the lefty’s I know are exceptional so we expect that beautiful Baby M will be no different!  Baby M is also extremely independent already! She loves her cuddles in the morning right when she gets up and again right before she goes to sleep. Otherwise she likes to be left to do what she pleases and does not like the constraints of somebody holding her–she is a big fan of laying on the floor or in her bouncy chair.  She wants to be wiggling and kicking her arms and legs and look around where ever she pleases.  She is also extremely social.  She will sit in her bouncy chair and chit chat with you for quite a while and hand out many, many full faced smiles like the one below after I dressed her in her St. Patrick’s Day best!  IMG_0347.JPGJames and I have been very fortunate, we have two very supportive families that are willing to help us any way possible, even when both families are 14 hours away!  My parents and James parents have come out to visit and have plans to visit multiple times this summer, and I was fortunate enough to be able to go back to Minnesota to visit my family for a week and a half before I start going back to work again in May (YIKES!).  We have been flooded with clothes for our cute baby because one of my older cousins has two girls and she has been handing down clothes upon clothes for Baby M!  I love hand-me-downs! IMG_0306

Baby M loves to go on hikes, runs, and just enjoys being outside! James and I are going to get a baby life vest for her so that the three of us can go by the river or float down the river–a favorite past time for mom and dad!

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Welcome Baby M

Week 39 started on Friday the 12th.  I was exhausted and frankly over just about everything.  My body hurt and I was not hungry in the least, so when I got home from work I sat on the couch and was out cold by about 6:00pm.  James has a great time with me considering I am always falling asleep on the couch and this time it was before dinner too.  But on the bright side, he never has to compromise on what he wants to watch on TV right?  James woke me up a little after 9:30pm to go upstairs and go to sleep.  As I was walking up the stairs I felt a rush of fluid and my first thought was “God, of course I just peed in my pants..”  Then it hit me that my water broke, I did not pee in my pants (thank goodness, since that would have been a drag!).  I got to the bedroom and sleepily told James that I think my water just broke and he jumped up and wanted to know what we should do.  I had no idea so I called the hospital to see if we should go in now or still wait until my contractions got to 5 minutes apart.  They said to come in now.  So we got ready–James really wanted to take a quick shower beforehand and I thought why not? I am not in any pain and well, sure go for it.  James was slightly panicked on the way to the hospital asking if I was alright and if I was in any pain–I was not.  There was not any traffic on the road at almost 10:00pm on a Friday night but I thought it was funny that James wanted to take the quickest way to the hospital and then realized that he was speeding.  I told him that we really were not in a rush since nothing was happening and any chance of infection (due to my water breaking) was still hours off.

We got to the ER entrance (because that is the only door that is unlocked after hours) and turns out if you tell the front desk people that your water broke they speed things along quite quickly!  I was asked multiple times if I wanted a wheelchair and to be wheeled down to labor and delivery.  Nope, I can walk.  I did not even want a wheelchair when I tore my meniscus in my knee and if I remember correctly I may have started to cry when they made me sit in the wheelchair because I was not able to walk-I guess my ego or pride could not handle it then and wasn’t able to handle it this night either.  I was going to walk to labor and delivery if it killed me–and turns out it didn’t.  When we got to labor and delivery I had to change into one of those amazing hospital gowns, get hooked up to the monitor so that they could see my contractions and baby M’s heart rate, and then I got an IV tube hook up for when I was in active, real labor the nurse said.  James and I hung out in the very spacious delivery room from 10:30ish to 4:00am with no change.  During this time the nurse told me that if I my contractions did not get more intense (because I could not feel them at all) and they did not get closer together she was going to start the pitocin at 4:00am.  Needless to say I started doing just about anything I could think of to get those contractions to kick in.  I was doing squats, walking around the room, and finally I decided to go walk the ENTIRE hospital (which took about 45 minutes) and walk up and down the stairs.  Can you picture me, massive, in a hospital gown, waddling around the hospital at 2:00am?!  It was very quiet and empty and I was laughing to myself the whole time thinking it would be quite the site to see me waddling around the hospital in the dark.

4:00am rolled around and my contractions were still nonexistent on the pain scale and they were still 3 clumped together at 2 minutes apart and then there was a 5 minute gap and then 3 more clumped together.  The doctor on call came in and introduced herself–James and I were not a fan of her, but could not place why.  She did tell me that once they start the pitocin she would recommend me getting an epidural to dull the pain because the pain gets real intense, real quickly.  I told her I wanted to try to do it naturally and her lovely response was, “well, just keep it in mind; most people who do pitocin get the epidural.” Thanks lady.  The nurse came in and started the pitocin but promised me that I would not require that much to get them started.  She came in every 15-30 minutes after that and added more–so much for not needing too much.  She did that for 2.5 hours.  I even tried to lie and tell her that they were getting closer together but she could see that they were not on the monitor.  Bummer.  They were getting more intense but it was not until the last time she increased the pitocin that I REALLY started to feel them.  WOWA!  Talk about going from zero to 90 in 30 minutes and then increasing to 100% in a matter of minutes.  At 7:45am, when I looked at the clock and realized I have been in labor for only 3 hours and 45 minutes and I was in pretty severe pain I started to panic and asked the nurse if I was getting close to delivering Baby M.  She did not even bother to check me and told me “Oh honey, you are just getting started. First time moms labor for around 10 to 14 hours.” Sheer panic Instantly shot through me and I thought, how the hell can these contractions get any worse?!  I then started to really panic each time I felt one coming, which lead to me hyperventilating, and almost passing out once or twice.  They were about 45 seconds to a 1 minute apart and lasted about 1 minute.  I told James that I can not do this anymore and I need the epidural if I am going to be in this much pain for the next 5 to 9 hours.  So sadly (or luckily, I haven’t totally decided which yet) the anesthesiologist was in the room next to me so he was only going to be a few minutes and then come give me my epidural.  The nurse never bothered to check to see how dilated I was and at that point I did not think to ask before I had the epidural put in.  And in retrospect I should have made her check, because right after I had the epidural put in (still feeling EVERY contraction) the nurse checked me and told me that it was time to start pushing.  WHAT! You said it was going to be HOURS before I had to start pushing, that’s why I started to panic and that’s why I got the epidural.  By this time it was 7:50ish and I was still feeling the contractions, although I must admit, I was happy to feel them slowly subside due to the medication.  I also knew that MY doctor was on call starting at 8:00am and that she was on her way in to the hospital.  So since it was about 5 minutes to 8 and I was no longer in pain, I was going to have MY doctor deliver my baby.  So the nurse rolled me onto my side so Baby M’s heart rate didn’t drop while we waited and they called my doctor to see how far out she was.  My doctor came into my room very excited to see me and trust me, I was THRILLED to see her as well.  I pushed for 20 minutes (pain free minutes mind you) and then BAM! James and I were parents to a healthy, 6 pound 12 ounce, 19.5 inch long baby girl!  We were thrilled and could not be happier! She screamed right away and then calmed down when she was put on my chest.  She was perfect!!

I do not regret getting the epidural because I was able to wait for my doctor to deliver Baby M, but if I would have known that I was going to have my baby in my arms by 8:20am I would not have gotten the epidural a little before 7:50am.  The contractions were not going to get any stronger and I was holding it together until I asked the nurse how much longer this was going to last and besides that, I was completely numb from waist down until 1:30pm that afternoon.  The epidural was in me for a mere 20 minutes at a charge of $1,780 (just got that bill) and I was numb for the majority of the day.

But whatever the method, the end result was Madelyn Ann.  Born on Saturday, February 13th at 8:20am–totally perfect and amazing! (Thank you Baby M for not arriving on Valentines day!)   Interesting side note–James proposed to me on February 13th two years prior to baby m arriving!

Baby M did not have a name until we left the hospital 2 days later.  Turns out it is quite hard to decide on a name that will follow this little one around for the rest of her life.  In the end we decided on Madelyn because James wanted her name to start with an M (for some reason) and I loved the name Adaline.  We compromised on Madelyn.

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Are you ready for an insane amount of Madelyn pictures?  She had her picture professionally taken at the hospital and some of them were so cute that we had to have them.

Her feet are so tiny!!

Bump Watch

Week 38:

TOTAL WEIGHT GAIN: +40 pounds.  EEK!
MATERNITY CLOTHES?  Yep and they are getting quite tight at this point!
SLEEP: Not a whole lot.
STRETCH MARKS?: NOPE! And hopefully nothing shows up in the last few weeks!
BEST MOMENT: Hands down: The moment when James felt Baby M kick for the first time and the expression on his face.
MISS ANYTHING? I miss everything about not being pregnant.  I want to meet my baby!
MOVEMENT: She is an active little bugger!
CRAVINGS:
 Nothing crazy, I’m still hungry all the time though.
EW, GROSS: 
My poor feet and toes and now kankles are like little sausages and by the end of the day I have sock impressions along my entire foot.
GENDER: Girl.
LABOR SIGNS:   Braxton Hick contractions that have been about 30 minutes apart–but nothing painful and they are not getting closer together.
SYMPTOMS: Weight gain and swollen ankles, feet, hands, and toes. Nothing crazy or out of the ordinary.
INNIE OR OUTIE? outie.
MOOD: Content, but ready to meet my baby and  not be pregnant anymore.
EXCITED FOR: To be done being pregnant and of course to MEET MY LITTLE GIRL!! We still do not have a name picked out for her..
I do not have a picture of me this week, but I have a great gem for you to see–my swollen feet!
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Now that is one attractive foot, no?  The day when my feet and ankles look normal will be a great day!

Fly Tying

Since James found out about the arrival of Baby M, he knew his extravagant fishing days were limited.  Realistically we should not be spending massive amounts of money on fly rods, reels, line, and especially flies.  Those tiny little things that get tied to the end of the line, thrown into the water, get hooked in mouths, and get stuck on something and lost are at least $1.50 a piece and I have seen some for $6.00!  I could not believe it the first time I saw how much they were! The hooks are tiny!!  Although–I must admit, they are quite amazing to look at!  The colors, patterns, materials that are used are crazy!

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Flies that James likes to use to catch Trout.

Now, you may be saying that those don’t look too hard to make–because I said the same thing when I first agreed to make flies for him.  Well let me tell you, those tiny little masses of feathers/rabbit fur/deer hair/elk hair/string/wire are some of the hardest things I have EVER tried to do. And truthfully probably one the of the most frustrating things I have tried.  The hooks are tiny, TINY, the string or hair NEVER stays were it should, you have loose ends hanging out everywhere, and most of the time when I am done it does not look like what it is supposed to.  We have had the fly tying kit for close to a year now and it only comes out when James gets desperate, wants me to try something new, or when I decide to make up a brand new fly–AKA, seeing what colors/material I can throw together and see if it actually catches any fish.  I enjoy fly fishing when it is 90 and sunny, James fishes all year round–sun, wind, rain, snow, cold, you name it, he has fished in it.

Since we decided to cut back on recreational activity spending (i.e. spending $20-$50 on flies each time we go fishing–which for James is almost daily in the summer and two-ish times a week in the winter), there really isn’t much choice in the matter. Fly tying will be in our blood eventually. Besides, most of the fly fisherman we know around here do tie their own flies because it is so much cheaper.  In order for me to agree to make some dysfunctional looking flies I told James that I get to pick out some of the colors we use.  He likes the browns, greens, browns–me on the other hand enjoy seeing lime greens, blues, pinks, orange, sparkles.. If I were a fish, I would skip the boring tan fly and go straight for the eye catching lime green and pink fly!  James tries to tie the flies but his hands are too big–he can hardly hold onto the hook without covering the whole thing up, and turns out his fingers can not be all at nimble and gentle without ripping the material, or breaking the thread. Eventually, I always end up fishing the flies.  The best part is that no matter how horrible the fly is James always says it looks great and he always uses it!

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Let me tell you–the video in our kit and the YouTube videos that tell you how to make the flies look so simple; lies, its all lies.. Even the simplest ones, like what we made yesterday were hard!  James wanted to go fishing with a friend, but wanted some flies that looked like worms.  Seems easy enough right, I thought I could bust one of these guys out in a few minutes.  Well turns out it took us 30 minutes for the first one and it looked horrible.  We did make 4 of them after the first one and by the end I had it down to about 10 minutes a fly.  The fly we made yesterday had one piece of long thick string or rubber down the back of the hook–that is it.  Should not have taken so long, but of course I once again underestimated the difficulty of the fly tying skill.

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Our fly tying contraption.

Now, most people who do this on a regular basis have their very own room to fly ties and keep it set up 24/7.  We on the other hand have all of our fly tying things in a Tupperware box that sits in the closet until I get enough courage to actually attempt to make a fly. We set ours up on the kitchen counter when it needs to be.

To make our squirmy wormie fly: (This was a team effort–it took 4 hands occasionally)

  1. Get a size 10-12 hook and put a gold bead head on it.  James had to do that because I was not able to get the head around the hook part.
  2. Wrap the copper wire around the shaft of the hook to the curve to make sure it has enough weight to keep it under water.  Make sure that the head is locked in place by wrapping a lot of wire right behind it.  Make sure the wire is tight, otherwise it just moves around the hook as you make the rest of the fly–super annoying when that happens.
  3. Take the sparkly thread (that was a must for me) and wrap it from the bead head down to the end of the copper wire, covering it completely.
  4. Take one of your squirmy wormie bodies and put it on top of the hook shaft–we both needed to hold the worm part onto the hook while I wrapped the sparkly thread around it from head to toe.
  5. I folded the worm body over its self twice to make the worm body thick enough to where I thought it looked ok.

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Can you guess what color I picked out?? Of course the neat pink one with sparkly thread!! We made our squirmy wormies for $0.50/each, not $1.50/each from the store.  They may not look like the ones from the store, but James did say he had a lot of bites when he used them yesterday–sadly he did not catch any fish though.  He told me a few times that he likes my squirmy wormies more than the ones from the store! He actually really liked the sparkly aspect of them.  And! The fly on the upper left, the sparkly tail feathers were his idea and he said the fish loved it!